This week Brett, Rogue and I have been visiting my family in NY, and have gotten to see a lot of great friends. Living on the West Coast and even in Baltimore, has made it hard to see NY friends and family, and that’s tough. Seeing everyone has reminded me how blessed I am to have such a great family and good friends. Even after not seeing some for 6 years, it’s like things haven’t changed. I’m very thankful for that.
And yes, while I’m still on crutches and a brace, I’m slowly weaning off them. I even drove the car! Currently I’m able to walk maybe 10-20 feet sans crutches, without having any issues. I do look like I’m a penguin as I kind of rock back and forth, but that’s ok, I’m getting better.
I’m hoping that maybe by next week I’ll be not using the crutches, but at the same time, I don’t want to push it. I keep being asked how I’m being patient, or how can I not be stressed out by it already being 7 weeks and not really being able to do much. My answer is simple, it took a year and a half to figure out what was wrong. That was a very hard time in my life. The not knowing what was wrong, being in constant pain, having doctors tell you they don’t see anything wrong, etc. Now that I’ve had the surgery, and we found the problem, I’m on the road to recovery. I certainly want to get back to training and racing, but will not push it, it’s not worth it.
This journey will take many more months, but it will be ok. Most runners/triathletes will be injured at least once in their life. Please, for your sake, don’t push through it. Have patience and know that you’ll be ok. Just don’t try to push through it to be “tough.” There’s a time to push through good pain, but you know the difference between good and bad pain. Don’t be a hero, just stop, take a break. Your overall health is much more important than one race/season.
Another thing to I want to mention is how important it is to be your own advocate. As I look back, I’m realizing how many doctors gave up on me. They said I was fine, they couldn’t find anything, it must be in my head, etc. Well, it wasn’t! It took me finding at PT and a physiatrist who wouldn’t give up on me, and a research study in Australia, to figure out what was wrong. If I hadn’t have kept pushing to see another doctor, to try another procedure I might still be in undetermined pain. I’m in pain still, but we know why, the surgeon cut me! If you have an injury you’re not sure how to treat, and you aren’t getting the answers you want, keep pushing, you are your own best advocate. Only you know how you feel and only you know your body. Even if you feel crazy, keep pushing till you get there.
PT for the hamstring starts at the 3 month mark. I’m very excited to get started, and especially to use the Alter G treadmill at the PT clinic. Where else can you take off 100lbs in a day (well, maybe surgery). But the Alter G is pretty awesome, so I’m excited. For those of you that can, happy training, I’ll see you soon.